I think that for now, I will de-prioritize becoming a professional chess gvmer.
A part of me still wants to go and become a National Master but the reality of
things is that I haven't even been motivated or excited about playing chess, heck
I haven't even looked at chess for months now.
I understand that I'm not a genius chess player and that I will have to work a hundred
folds in comparison to the others who are more natually inclined to the game. There's
probably other games that I can become pro at much faster rate and chance than chess
but TBH, no other game has come close to the presitige and class that chess brings (maybe
the closest one is Go or Shogi, probably Go NGL). Heck, I can probably be considered pro once
I start winning in Brawhalla tournaments.
With that said, its not like I'm completely taking chess of my life, I love it too much and it's
one of the things that connects me to my old man. I'm moreso hard scaling it down and will still
train but not focused on becoming a National Master. Just closer to a more semi-casual training
environment. NGL, I don't think I can do any training in life "casually", my soul demands I put a
100% effort lol.
Maybe once I do that, my fire for chess will be reignited again. I'm just gonna simplify my training
regimen and not set a scheduled date/time for it on my regular daily schedule.
live fast, die young, and leave a good looking corpse