"I've missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games.
Twenty-six times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've
failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."
-Michael Jordan
I'm the type of fellar that doesn't like to fail, even in video games as well.
I just personally think that it slowly conditions your mind to accept failure
and when the life and death time comes, that chink is enough for me to lose at
that moment.
While I accept that this sort of mentality..... this not normal and it's probably
not healthy either if I say so myself, this has been the condition I've been living
with myself since I was a teenager and it's been alright. However, I wonder if this
is actually efficient? How can I even test this?
With that said, I've failed time and time again - and I've gotten up from it. It's
like an inside joke for me already, I live the life of suffering and I enjoy it LOL.
So I was planning on going into a Data Science position/field but as I go through
the course [1], I find that I'm not really motivated by it. It's the same feeling
when I thought I was thinking of going into Web Development, front end design wasn't
really my thing either. In retrospect, I enjoy design but my ideas are kinda specialized
which will not work as a front end developer as you need to employ a wide variety of
design ideas for the mainstream.
If I really think about it, deep down, I prefer backend development. So after some
consideration, I decided to pivot to Data Engineering as I think it's something that
considers all of my strengths and the idea doesn't bore me.
Now onto the idea of accepting failure; I'm now in my late 30's and I'm still working
on my path. I've tried so many ideas already and yet I've still haven't been able to
fully commit to something. To be fair, I could've just stayed in the logistics field
but it doesn't really interest me anymore. So we go again, and again, and again. I think
about it and I'd rather prefer to keep searching for greatness than rather settle for
mediocrity.
Wish me luck.
[1] I really enjoy that I can check how a field is by going through free internet courses
and seeing if I enjoy it. With that said, it's a double edge source as it allows me a
variety of options, but takes time to see what I would really enjoy.